Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

It might take forever for me to understand the way people communicate, me who wonder why iPhone has to be a phone. I understand people want to take everywhere something that can connect to the Internet, but I haven't understood yet why the handheld device has to have a function for its user to talk someone else. I sometimes enjoy conversation, but when I'm alone, I have a lot of things other than talking to other people. Releasing stress in a lonely place, saying, crying, screaming some senseless things which make them think I've gone crazy (and I actually am some sort of), indulging myself into imagination or fantasy based on video games, automobile catalogs, data books of trains, and so on. Inability to understand the need to communicate as much as possible to have fun of do effective work may have made me hard to understand the need and convenience of a mobile phone, making call everywhere. I happened to see on a portal site a news telling that it's been 7 ye...

With this post, I've written something on this blog every day for half a year. Sometimes I feel as if thinking of a blog post were my duty, and I wrote half-minded posts probably tens of times. I'm afraid that even this post might be another half-mind posts. Even though many of my blog posts were half-minded, the fact that I posted this blog every day for a half year means I've achieved the half of the new year's resolution for this year. This is thanks to readers, and mental supports and encouragements from church members at my church, running a English conversation class, and this is also thanks to my obsession with doing something with English I happened to learn continuously, for at first the rehabilitation from dropout and "Hikikomori", withdrawn to home for a long period by having something good at compared from average students in my university. Although I haven't referred to much so far, it's time to tell the story of why I don't gi...

When I went to job training and mainly engaged in data entry work, my concern was enhancing my strong points. I was interested a lot in computer, and I sought opportunities to learn and practice more a little bit beyond data entry and operation of an office suite software. I'm especially interested in making something on a PC, and I thought the only choice was through programming. Meanwhile, among our data entry team, improving data entry quality is an important agenda. Practice makes perfect, but the problem was, there wasn't any offline practice environment. There was only written and online static documents of entry rules and a few examples, though. (These was very useful themselves and the management had really effective method to feedback operators, though) Besides, there wasn't much data enough to give operators work fully, and there was a lot of idle time. These were the reason why I tried to make a data entry simulator. I chose the platform an internet browse...

I slept almost all daytime except for the Sunday service. I felt I could sleep until evening after I had breakfast. I woke up at 10 a.m. and went to church anyway. Surprisingly, in spite I had limped to church with leaning on my umbrella as a stick, I could stand the sound of worship songs I usually felt too loud to stand, and sang in tune, and was able to follow of the speed people say the Lord's Prayer. Today, I learned the attitude of prayer from Matthew 6:5~. I looked back on myself if my prayer was something to show people, especially people praying together. I learned that a prayer is 1 to 1 session between God and me, and hospitality to God. At work, I often have an opportunity to learn about customer satisfaction hospitality. Listening to today's message in the context I want to learn more about hospitality, even if it's not at all what I've been good at with my extremely limited interest. I also learned that I want to mean it when I say a prayer...

When I felt good, I tell daily things interestingly, even small things like colors of rose flowers in the rainy season, or troubles with hairy caterpillars all over the passage to the church. While I have adjust myself to stand work on weekdays, I've lost the aspiration to tall daily trivial discoveries, which look to me vivid in color and other details and invoke the desire to tell these discoveries as much as possible. Even now a few times a day, I feel such kind of discoveries, but it looks like that when I sit in front of my PC, the impressions I had felt in the morning felt blow away or deep into the closet of my mend, for example when I got out of the train to work and looked down on the platform, for metallic shine of the rails, signs, signals, and underfloor devices and bogie trucks. Now on weekend my eyes and body and mind are first requiring rest. I feel as if I could sleep I could sleep most of the day and still can and need to have a regular sleep at night. Real ...

Rainy season has come back again. In the beginning of June, we had heavy rain for 3 consecutive days, but we hadn't have much rain since then although it was often sticky. Today, when I went out for lunch, it rained a little. My umbrella was useless because it was windy too. I had planned to go to pool later in the afternoon, but I canceled it because the rain and wind become even stronger. According to the long-range weather forecast, we may be going to have a lot of rain in July, although temperature will be like average year, changed from the previous long-range forecast which says temperature may be going to be lower than average year affected by El Nino.

I haven't have a mobile phone, let alone a smartphone. Most people, especially people I see at work and in an activity with young adults with same disability. Besides, when I ride a train, most of young people are viewing something with their smartphone, (or sometimes their feature phone). The other day, I had an opportunity to make a 1-minute free speech, and I chose the theme, calling anxious about waves. When I thought of this speech, I felt myself as if I had a mobile phone and talking on the phone where microwave is not strong enough. In terms of mobile, it was true, and in terms of making a call, it was also true, but it wasn't on mobile phone. So what is it? In my Kindle (an e-book reader), Skype had already been installed, and I bought a Skype credit to make a phone call to a telephone, mainly telephoning my house. There is a free wi-fi spot near the station, so I thought I could make a call. I couldn't make a call at all. Finally, I used a public phone as I ...