Routine, Duty, or Obsession, Anyway Half Year Through
With this post, I've written something on this blog every day for half a year.
Sometimes I feel as if thinking of a blog post were my duty, and I wrote half-minded posts probably tens of times. I'm afraid that even this post might be another half-mind posts.
Even though many of my blog posts were half-minded, the fact that I posted this blog every day for a half year means I've achieved the half of the new year's resolution for this year.
This is thanks to readers, and mental supports and encouragements from church members at my church, running a English conversation class, and this is also thanks to my obsession with doing something with English I happened to learn continuously, for at first the rehabilitation from dropout and "Hikikomori", withdrawn to home for a long period by having something good at compared from average students in my university.
Although I haven't referred to much so far, it's time to tell the story of why I don't give up learning English, actually can't quit from learning English even though it make little difference in my life if I don't understand English now. (And to make difference, I'm looking for what I can tell some people can really enjoy ... it's on the way, and only beginning.)
I don't think at least so far, I've succeeded to give a certain unique point of views to readers. In this respect, I'm as small and trivial as a bug as a blog writer in English. Meanwhile, most of people around me are surprised that I understand English, I can write at least something in English, or the results of English tests I've taken previously.
Most Japanese learn English for six years, and are told that English is the most important subject (especially for entrance exams), most quit, and find English proficiency amazing, of a person who continue to write pointless articles and talking to himself most of time. Many people are even allergic to English.
I said to myself that it's an aftermath of English education in Japan.
I know that there are Japanese who really can communicate effectively in English, and even if it may not feasible to reach this level, I may want to have these people as role models.
Therefore, the latter half of year I may want, continuing to write sometimes half-minded, and sometimes pointless, to keep in mind that I'll be potential to write something interesting in the near future, keeping on listening to something interesting, and trying to find something interesting that are food for thought and future writing.
Sometimes I feel as if thinking of a blog post were my duty, and I wrote half-minded posts probably tens of times. I'm afraid that even this post might be another half-mind posts.
Even though many of my blog posts were half-minded, the fact that I posted this blog every day for a half year means I've achieved the half of the new year's resolution for this year.
This is thanks to readers, and mental supports and encouragements from church members at my church, running a English conversation class, and this is also thanks to my obsession with doing something with English I happened to learn continuously, for at first the rehabilitation from dropout and "Hikikomori", withdrawn to home for a long period by having something good at compared from average students in my university.
Although I haven't referred to much so far, it's time to tell the story of why I don't give up learning English, actually can't quit from learning English even though it make little difference in my life if I don't understand English now. (And to make difference, I'm looking for what I can tell some people can really enjoy ... it's on the way, and only beginning.)
I don't think at least so far, I've succeeded to give a certain unique point of views to readers. In this respect, I'm as small and trivial as a bug as a blog writer in English. Meanwhile, most of people around me are surprised that I understand English, I can write at least something in English, or the results of English tests I've taken previously.
Most Japanese learn English for six years, and are told that English is the most important subject (especially for entrance exams), most quit, and find English proficiency amazing, of a person who continue to write pointless articles and talking to himself most of time. Many people are even allergic to English.
I said to myself that it's an aftermath of English education in Japan.
I know that there are Japanese who really can communicate effectively in English, and even if it may not feasible to reach this level, I may want to have these people as role models.
Therefore, the latter half of year I may want, continuing to write sometimes half-minded, and sometimes pointless, to keep in mind that I'll be potential to write something interesting in the near future, keeping on listening to something interesting, and trying to find something interesting that are food for thought and future writing.
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