The Slipping Away 500th Post

Before I wrote the article of a computer game Wizardry and learning English, there were already 499 posts in this blog.

I thought the article was my 500th posts.

After finishing the post, the count of post was still 499.
The title of memorial 500 posts slipped away from that long story of my memory of game plays.

I wondered why. After a little bit of thought, I recalled that I had deleted an empty post.
This is because the number was still 499 after I posted the previous article.

This is the real 500th post (including drafts in my dashboard), as long as I don't delete another empty article or a draft I decide to discard.

I wonder again what is the real 500th post which is published.

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