Time to have a rest I dreamed of in the last half of this week

My eyes are sore after I made illustrations for web pages at work.
My muscles all over my body have been sore since the last half of this week.
I saw myself in a mirror several times.
My eyes looked red and a little bit aged than last week.
Although I managed to walk to my destination every time every day, I could hardly walk straight.
I heard the slamming and thudding sounds of my shoes when I walked.
I was safe because I managed to see traffic lights, cars passing by and other pedestrians.
Every time I walked I dreamed of lying on a bed or a sofa.
When I'm in front of my computer at work, I forgot about my tiredness, but once I was free to rest it was the time to dreaming of lying on a bed.
Coffee worked a little bit to make me positive to work, but worked little to the lack of the feeling of balance.
Anyway I'm relieved that I'm released from my duty for a while and allowed to go to bed for this weekend.
Now I have to plan carefully how to spend this weekend to recover from this tiredness.

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