A strange dream (2) An Introduction to Body Parts Tired Most

A few days later I had had a strange dream of the climbing down race in a 65-story skyscraper, I had another strange dream. It was about a book with strange title.

Just now I saw a book titled "An Introduction to Body Parts Tired Most" on my bookshelf.

I felt a little bit strange and even a little bit scared.
When I turned my eyes to the book to take it, I was awaken.

I turned a room light on and look around my room.
There wasn't no such book. There wasn't even a bookshelf that book was on.

I'm thinking to myself, I'm so tired that several parts of my body are sore.
My eyes, hip are, and I feel my whole body heavier and much less power left than usual.

The book I saw in the dream was an embodiment of my tiredness these days.

 I have seen a book or books with strange title for several time.
Also, I often see a dream with a place or a station with a strange name when I'm really tired.
Mere a strange name which I believe is nonexistent sometimes make me really scared.

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