Half-way adjustment to working environment causing all-day sleep on Sunday

When I felt good, I tell daily things interestingly, even small things like colors of rose flowers in the rainy season, or troubles with hairy caterpillars all over the passage to the church.

While I have adjust myself to stand work on weekdays, I've lost the aspiration to tall daily trivial discoveries, which look to me vivid in color and other details and invoke the desire to tell these discoveries as much as possible. Even now a few times a day, I feel such kind of discoveries, but it looks like that when I sit in front of my PC, the impressions I had felt in the morning felt blow away or deep into the closet of my mend, for example when I got out of the train to work and looked down on the platform, for metallic shine of the rails, signs, signals, and underfloor devices and bogie trucks.

Now on weekend my eyes and body and mind are first requiring rest.
I feel as if I could sleep I could sleep most of the day and still can and need to have a regular sleep at night.

Real adjustment to working environment for me is redeeming the energy to tell daily discoveries and to do light exercise as much as to run a half marathon at my own pace.

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