Continue even when I feel week and not smart

My boss told that it's very important never to quit all the time as far as possible, when you find yourself feel bad, sick, or weak.

When I feel good, I feel that my body and brain work as powerful as if I could work out with difficult mathematics theory, and when I feel bad, I feel so weak that I find myself being in difficulty with understanding and pronouncing the most simple words at a proper speed.

I've been lucky enough to succeed to continue going to work since I landed my current job 35 months ago. Through this period I experienced many times I felt so bad that I couldn't help uttering to myself irrelevant words and rocking and rolling and shaking my arms and legs many times, but it was really fortunate that all these hard times happened not to reach the collapse as serious as I have to give up.

As going to work when I feel week and not smart is very important, so may continue my blog post daily be.

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