Because I'm not always experiencing fluency in my own language

Through a mail from LingQ I'm listening to some videos about language learning from Steve Kaufmann.
One title "Fluency over pronunciation" drew my eyes.
I thought I knew better than to unable to imagine what being fluency is like.
I've realized now that I know what being fluency is like in a sense that a news narrator is speaking news one after another, but I don't really know what it is like that I'm speaking fluently.
I make speeches daily especially at work in my own language, but my speeches are usually far from fluent.
When I was elementary school, I believed that I was speaking fluently, but though several speech test I was told I needed intensive training. It was not about English, but about my own language Japanese.
It wasn't until more than twenty years after this that I have problem with my speech even though I believe I'm speaking fluently.
In this way I know what fluency is like when I'm listening someone speaking but hardly understand what it is like for me to be able to speak fluently in any language.

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