An epsode I felt myself an odd person when I was counting up

Recently, I've been able to say my daily countdown fluently. For a month I've counted down every time I had a bath. At first I counted down from 100, a week later I counted down from 200 and in the recent week I counted down from 300.

I also counted down when I was walking home from work.
Suddenly I had an idea. So far I had counted down all one by one.
Why not counting either up and down by two, like 2, 4, 6 or 100, 98, 96 ...
I began counting up at first from 0 then 2 then 4, and finally reached 200.
Then I continued counting up by two from 201, then 203, and then 205 ...

I found myself more smoothly when I was counting up odd numbers than even numbers.
Then I came up with a funny idea. This was showing how I'm odd as well as any actions from the treat of my autistic nature.

Soon I realized that regardless of whether I'm good at counting odd numbers or even numbers, a person taking up counting up and down as fluency training looks odd.

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