Worn out suddenly, and have a short break

I suddenly felt it difficult to walk forward about when I came home.

I've been active in posting articles of much larger amount in this week than last month.
Also, I tried hard to implement some of blog functionality with php web programming.

In recent two weeks, I've pushed myself forward in learning about web design and programming. I've also pushed myself forward in communication to solve problems around my work, because I thought (and I had told) that solving someone's problem is the first step of designing.

I pushed myself so hard that now I can hardly move forward. It's fortunate that it's Friday and no work remains for this week.

Myself solving someone's problem by designing and myself creating stuffs even it may be the humblest one looks like so cool, but I also may want to keep in mind that the effort to push myself hard to show myself cool accompanies the risk of overload.

By my characteristic of autistic spectrum, I'm especially prone to be worn out if I overload myself. Daily efforts to pushing myself hard may be fun after I become familiar with this, but I realized again that literally daily may wear myself out totally. I need some break and a good way to return to the habit.

It's a little bit amazing, in spite of myself, that I don't even have an idea of take a break of my daily blog posts.

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