It was only me that was quaking - a mild but long-lasting quake in my nightmare

[Notice] This is not real disaster information. This is an incident in my last night dream.


It was before daybreak. I was writing this drinking non-wake-up (decaf) cafe au lait, hoping to get back to sleep then.

Last night I had a busy dream, and I felt an earthquake. It was rather mild but the quake lasted for more than a minute.
I anticipated that a big earthquake was happening far away.
I saw news, probably on TV, and surprised. M 7.8 in Kanto area. It looked like in some areas were volcanic eruptions.
Then soon after I heard an early earthquake warning although I hadn't turned on my TV, radio or PC.
The quake wouldn't stop. It continued during all this happenings.

Soon after I noticed that it wasn't ground that shook as an earthquake happens.
It looked like it was only me that shook during all this dreadful nightmare news.

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