I have seldom said it ... I had hardly been likely to even have that idea

"Pleas understand me" or "Please understand us" ... These are ideas I often hear when I meet with adults with developmental disorders. It's not until a few days ago that I noticed that I have seldom said them by myself. I even hadn't been able to think that way until I got the concept of high functioning autism when I was 18. Until then I was just thinking that I was prone to be involved in communication troubles without knowing certain reasons, so then I even didn't have the idea that being understood may help me.

Likewise, I was not very well answer to a question "What do you want to do?" when in panic.
My understanding of myself was very primitive, and the only things I was aware when I was 18 was, what to eat, what game to play, and what do I do to look cool (actually I was not cool at all, and was rather ridiculous instead).

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