This time of the year, sunrises getting later and later, mornings becoming darker and darker, and it's tough time for me. I enjoyed in the summer and autumn, enjoyed bicycling early in the morning even on weekdays, to fight against stress and anxiety. If I try to do this in the end of November, I have to get up when it's really dark at 5:30 p.m., standing cold weather which cause the temptation to stay in bed later, which definitely deprive me of the time to do activities early in the morning.
One good thing is I'm interested in bar tape installation. I'm planning to renew the bar tape of my road bike before the end of the year. This is relatively easy task among road bike maintenance, and if I succeed in it, I'm motivated to do more complex tasks, like installing binding pedals and lacing wheels for the next year. Now I'm looking for the choices of bar tapes reasonable enough to allow trial and error, while viewing how-to and experiences in YouTube videos.

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