At last I'm having happy holidays too

In Japan, Christmas is not a holiday, so I went to work the days around Christmas.

The Christmas trees in front of the central station disappeared after Christmas, but I saw the illusion of them.

Today was the last day for the year, and I've been relieved that I was back without much trouble, although I was so tired that I sometimes limped while I hurried home.

I wonder if I can sleep well tonight, for when I was back, the excitement I made today to sustain myself for the work won't wear off easily, even though I know now it's time I was able to relax.

Even if I can't (I hope I can because with good sleep I can have quality holidays like going skiing), I need not to worry. Now I need not to be worried about the condition if it is good enough to go out and meet people.

Now I'm getting used to the idea I'm also having holidays several days later than those who have holidays since Christmas, and can't help wishing them really happy holidays!

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