The first skiing this season is a rehabilitation

I plan to go out for skiing for tomorrow, December 30th. It is much later than past years in which my first skiing for the year is between December 7th to 15th, and by the end of year I had skied 3 to 4 times.

Not only this is my first skiing for the season, it may have the meaning of rehabilitation of social activity as well as skiing itself.

This decline of the pace of going skiing is firstly due to declining of my energy by aging, and due to the decline of my mental condition, struggling with coping with stresses of going to work and communicate with other people daily, and thirdly because, I've been feeling like giving up the vision to be active as a skiing instructor, being impossible to coping with mental health without lowering the priority of skiing activities.

I even thought that giving up skiing altogether. It wasn't good idea in terms of stress coping. Skiing is a good way of recreation and have a good effect on my mind and body as long as I spare my physical and mental energy and my time for my daily work.

Although it may be a little bit of stress to go out for skiing, because recently I've been feeling stress even I go out to see someone and think second before I go out on weekends.

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