A problem with my mind and a reality at the same time

I'm an introvert.

Although I don't hate having a conversation, I enjoy a conversation in very limited times with very limited range of people.

In the past I envied people who easily communicate with a lot of people. This is the reason I began this blog with a name including "green-eyed". I've been come to terms with my introverted nature.

I could push myself harder to speak more frequently with more people, but I imagine that if I did so, I would suffer so much stress that I would even struggle to walk and limp with mental tiredness.

Some people may say it's a problem of with mind. I don't deny this. It's certainly a problem with my mind. At the same time, this is a reality, while they're implying as if the problem with my mind can be solved if I change the way of thinking. Changing a way of thinking may be my work, but it isn't so easy as they imply. The problem with my mind have to be dealt with self-care, and care and help from another person.

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