I walked to a swimming pool but I hadn't planned to swim

I swam anyway.

I felt so tired that I hadn't planned to swim, but for an exercise, I had thought that I had been walking to the pool.

When I was walking to the pool, I felt slightly better and I though that I might be able to swim.
When I arrived at the pool, I wore my swim wear and dip myself into the pool.
I felt a little bit heavy, but I floated anyway.

At first I swam only slowly. My body was still heavy, so heavy that I couldn't even fully stretch my body.
After I swam 200 meters I felt I was fine enough to fully stretch my body.

Even after I swam 500 meters, I didn't stop. I think I swam more than 200 meters and less than 500 meters since then.

I walked home from the pool after I swam.

Even if I felt heavy, going out for a walk often makes me feel better.

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