Sunny Saturday, I went skiing finally after I hesitated because of my stress

Today it was sunny and not windy. A perfect day for skiing.
My condition was not perfect. I had been nervous and worried since I was on the train for home yesterday, and I didn't felt like much going skiing. I thought to myself, "Tomorrow will be fine and perfect weather for skiing, but ..."

I went skiing anyway. If I didn't felt better, I could leave the mountain after skiing for an hour. Actually I skied until noon, and even tried ski bumps, and after I went through well, I become breathless but I also felt that my stress is much relieved.

I sometimes worried about how to improve my skiing technique, but basically I ski for fun, free from stresses of work which sometimes required performances.

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