I doubt if I'm enjoying skiing tomorrow because I feel heavy now

I had been looking forward to going skiing in the middle of this week.
I had been doing some image training during coffee breaks at work.
By now I have come to doubt if I am going to enjoy skiing this weekend.
I don't believe it isn't cold but I feel heavy today so much that it's a bit heavy imagining I'm skiing.
I'm browsing information about skis 10 years ago on the web. Around 10 years ago, I went skiing the most often.
Now I don't go skiing so often and I'm not so crazy about skiing, but still thinking about skiing energize me enough to get over every-day work.
Now I may feel heavy, and perhaps I'm feeling so even if I arrive at the mountain tomorrow morning, but I won't know if I'm going to enjoy skiing until I once wear skis, have a lift and start skiing at 9 a.m.

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