Today's batle with cardboard, styrofoam to make a living space in my room

Buried in old wastes of cardboard and styrofoam, which had been the boxes and wrappings of a hi-fi audio system, a fan heater, and a printer, sheets of documents 10-20 years ago.

This was today's battle to make a living space in my room. It was in the afternoon, with a temperature of more than 36C (95F) outside. Thanks to air conditioner, water and barley tea, the battle to make a living space for today has come to end and I'm about to take a nap.

This work should have to be done when I moved in my current home 11 years ago.
I have put the work of cleaning up my room, disposing of unnecessary wastes for those years.
Now I've obtained to do the vigor to this, because my work has been somehow stabilized and thinking that I can be happy even though I can be stressed and subjected to anxiety of work of this week.

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