How being able to speak was powerful - An alarm that doesn't make sound doesn't serve as an alarm

How being able to speak was powerful

This is I paradoxically learned when I was so panicked I lost my voice on job rehabilitation training years ago.

I asked people around me for help, opening my mouth as large as I had been able to spoke out loud, although I was not really able to have my voice.

Someone gave me a cold look, but no one responded.

I was thinking, "They would notice that there is something wrong with me. The would notice that I'm in emergency situation."
"Are they thinking that I'm just joking? This is no joke! I'm so panicked that all I could behave to ask for help is just in this way."

An alarm that doesn't make sound doesn't serve as an alarm. I learned a lesson from the severe fact.

Fortunately, now it's rare that I fall into such a panic that I lose voice, but I don't forget how I was miserable and helpless when I didn't have my voice, but only could I open and close my mouth as if I were speaking.


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