I heard my mind alarm again tonight - a storm as wild as the 10th typhoon is happening in my mind
I heard an alarm.
This is not a sound that make outside of me.
This is a warning sign my myself make. I can't stand anymore. I can't push myself hard in a day.
I imagined myself powerlessly lying on a bed or a carpet.
Actually I have a few things do so I have to wait until I'm allowed to lie down.
I was so upset but at the same time so worn out that all I could do was I beat the surface of the bath water powerlessly.
It's OK. Being mild is one of my policies. It's much better than I actually become violent.
I thought to myself, if someone blame me as selfish because I want to collapse because I'm so tired, it would be much better for me to be really selfish, doing things extravagantly. I always end up with just imagining. Being extravagant is not my character.
Trying to be mild, pressing violent magma eruption under my subconsciousness often from my dissatisfaction and frustration is always my style.
Weird facial expressions, weird behaviors of my fingers, palms and wrists, some incomprehensible uttering, flipflopping and silently crapping my hands and fingers, standing tensely and weirdly straight, this is probably how people find me as odd, what I sometimes confuse that the are thinking of myself as selfish. All the same my behaviors I sometimes make when I'm wreck from stress make some people uncomfortable, and not welcome as a member of their inner circles.
This is not a sound that make outside of me.
This is a warning sign my myself make. I can't stand anymore. I can't push myself hard in a day.
I imagined myself powerlessly lying on a bed or a carpet.
Actually I have a few things do so I have to wait until I'm allowed to lie down.
I was so upset but at the same time so worn out that all I could do was I beat the surface of the bath water powerlessly.
It's OK. Being mild is one of my policies. It's much better than I actually become violent.
I thought to myself, if someone blame me as selfish because I want to collapse because I'm so tired, it would be much better for me to be really selfish, doing things extravagantly. I always end up with just imagining. Being extravagant is not my character.
Trying to be mild, pressing violent magma eruption under my subconsciousness often from my dissatisfaction and frustration is always my style.
Weird facial expressions, weird behaviors of my fingers, palms and wrists, some incomprehensible uttering, flipflopping and silently crapping my hands and fingers, standing tensely and weirdly straight, this is probably how people find me as odd, what I sometimes confuse that the are thinking of myself as selfish. All the same my behaviors I sometimes make when I'm wreck from stress make some people uncomfortable, and not welcome as a member of their inner circles.
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