I couldn't go to Gassan. I was turned down take my skis on board the highway bus at Sendai station bus terminal. 7 years ago it was OK to take my skis on the bus. The rule has been changed. My 2018-2019 ski season had come to an end with a discouraging happening, but I want to keep my motivation to the next season, maintaining my physical and mental state in tune and turn into the next season in a good condition, although it'll be likely to experience so many ups and downs as with my mental vulnerability along with my autistic characteristic.
Slow Burst
My mental state is near burst. I sometimes make strange noises myself when I feel as if my brain were going to burst. I also feel that my mind is going to burst slowly with stresses from too many unreasonable things. One source of these stresses, I suppose, is the incompatibility with the standard way of socialization especially in business scenes and my characteristic sometimes described in the context of autism spectrum disorder. Even now, while I'm thinking that standard social skills in business scenes is worth learning, I scream to myself getting mad when I learn them. Isn't just shaving my beards enough to be a salesperson? Am I going to be disadvantaged forever because the skin of my face and my head is too dry? This is one reason why I thought that I wanted to escape my country when I was 11 and 25. This made me learn some foreign language. However, I'm learning that overseas isn't so good as I dream about, especially as long as I go to public school. W...
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