I had a lot of sleep last night, fortunately.
My fatigue seemed to be much relieved. Still I feel I want more, especially when I felt a bit sleepy in the afternoon.
I feel stuck, little hope in the future, and my body too heavy to start jogging.
In what topic would I find hope? What would I offer a topic in what field? Perhaps, homepage and abylimpics (job skill contest)? Still I kind of like computer network technologies. I advanced a bit my study for CCNP switch. These days I'm learning about high availability of gateway with standby router protocols.
The atmosphere of supper got somehow sour, when the topic of mass stabbing near Tokyo. The criminal seems to a bit of Hikikomori, and lived with his relatives, who are near the age of my Parents. I didn't know what to say, and I was even at a loss what facial expression to make.
15 minutes before I had failed to make myself understood, (of course in my native and our common language Japanese) when I told the story of two cars in difficulty of passing by each other on a road near home.
Is this because of aging? I ask for myself.
I find myself needing much more energy to begin jogging, to remember episodes, to find and tell something fun, than when I began to work.
Fortunately, I'm not so deep in despair as when I was in university or when I was 30 years old, although at those times, obviously, I had much more opportunities.
In any way it is fortunate that there are a few things, by doing which I can give hopes to people who find themselves struggling with living, by communicating my struggle of finding a job and fitting into workplaces I was in, and how to acquired my humble IT skills.
My fatigue seemed to be much relieved. Still I feel I want more, especially when I felt a bit sleepy in the afternoon.
I feel stuck, little hope in the future, and my body too heavy to start jogging.
In what topic would I find hope? What would I offer a topic in what field? Perhaps, homepage and abylimpics (job skill contest)? Still I kind of like computer network technologies. I advanced a bit my study for CCNP switch. These days I'm learning about high availability of gateway with standby router protocols.
The atmosphere of supper got somehow sour, when the topic of mass stabbing near Tokyo. The criminal seems to a bit of Hikikomori, and lived with his relatives, who are near the age of my Parents. I didn't know what to say, and I was even at a loss what facial expression to make.
15 minutes before I had failed to make myself understood, (of course in my native and our common language Japanese) when I told the story of two cars in difficulty of passing by each other on a road near home.
Is this because of aging? I ask for myself.
I find myself needing much more energy to begin jogging, to remember episodes, to find and tell something fun, than when I began to work.
Fortunately, I'm not so deep in despair as when I was in university or when I was 30 years old, although at those times, obviously, I had much more opportunities.
In any way it is fortunate that there are a few things, by doing which I can give hopes to people who find themselves struggling with living, by communicating my struggle of finding a job and fitting into workplaces I was in, and how to acquired my humble IT skills.
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