Keeping mental state in shape for my work teammate is my first priority. This is why I permit myself to miss self learning in this weekend

I allow myself to spend this weekday totally freely. I don't blame myself because I didn't practice Photoshop or Illustrator, or preparing for Network Specialist exam taking advantage of this free time.

In the beginning of this week, my mental state was so bad that I even forgot my lunch to work my mom had prepared for me. Another day of week, I forgot an item I usually bring to work. Although it wasn't really necessary for work, it makes me much more comfortable at work. In addition to those, every morning I was so irritated that I could't help taking notes of my mental state before I was set to work. In that way, I was losing my mental health and if I didn't have a proper rest, I'm going to really lose it.

Going to work every day and relieve my employer and teammate, by keeping my mental state in shape. All self discipline will come after that.

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