Still in search of "What I can give through this blog and to whom"

I decided one thing. I will never meet the demand for gossips and complaints, however huge such demands may be.

I thought that way, when I saw a blog ranking my Japanese blog belongs to and checked the most popular blogs there. Minimalists' blogs, day traders' blogs and blogs full of prejudice and gossips are among then. I may want to adopt thoughts of those minimalist, but I definitely want to quit from gossip mentality. Also, I thought that the way to be more positive should be among those top blogs, since I often search for such information, and I wish I would be able to provide success stories and tips for them.

I myself, to be honest, am so easily give into the temptation to join in such things as actually have spoiled me, especially my strength.

Then what need would I meet? I have no such success story as many people want to get.

Well, actually, if I listen to people I see at my local church, even though my behavior at church is terrible from my panic, that I was able to acquire English proficiency and computer literacy are something they appreciate as my achievements. Have I myself fairly evaluated my achievement? Have I liked myself enough that I done well at so many trials?

Originally, I was thinking of an entry about how I loved my entries on this blog in earlier times. Most successful bloggers advises that "You need to make it clear, what your target reader 'persona' will be, and write messages to him/her", and some does, "You want to be the greatest fan of your blog".

The latter advice made me think, "I have written so much so far, but how have I liked this fact that I have never quit, if not I wouldn't be able to be pleased with my past posts."

Perhaps my next job to improve my blog was how I like my past post and myself then when I wrote those posts.

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