Aged 20 years with a picture book of aged car

When I was absent from high school for a few months because of mental disorders, I bought a picture book of retro and nostalgic cars. It is full of photos and articles of Japanese cars in around between 50s to 70s (at that time it was early 90s, and the book deals with cars 20years to 40 years before).

This book, as well as video games such as Dragon Quest or Final Fantasy, gave me comfort when I spent hard time. It reminded me of my childhood, when the cars on the book was actually frequently seen on the road (some cars were old enough to have been nostalgic already by the time I was born).

I'm surprised how fast time flies when I know it's been 20 years since I bought the picture book, and even brand-new cars at that time, some taken as comparisons in the book, are being categorized as nostalgic.

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