Additional medication to cope with unusual anxiety

I got additional medication for a few days today. I went to the mental clinic I go to to get the medication to settle my anxiety once or twice a month, and I take the medicine almost every day these days.

Yesterday, I was a little bit upset because I was severely scolded for my mistake. Last night I slept as long as usual, but I doubt if I did as deep as usual.

Today I took the train of 8:35 AM, and the train was a little bit delayed because of the delay of oncoming trains. After I arrived at the clinic I had to wait more than one hour. I became a little bit impatient, and agitation in my mind wasn't fully settled, so I began to keep some note about my unsettled feeling.

When I met with my doctor, I spoke about the events of the recent week, especially ones likely to trigger stress. After I spoke, it looked like that the doctor perceived me as a little bit irritated and upset than usual, and decided to give additional medication. I'm going to take the additional medication in coming 5 days, after breakfast, in addition to my regular medication.

After I left the clinic, I walked home. I walked about 11 kilometers and it took 3 hours, including a stop at a batting range and lunch break.

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