Let's not let my "down" and "unable" self dominate my self image

I have been told about my ups and downs from my mentors.

When I'm down I don't feel like doing anything and feel that I'm not able to do much things.
This has really a bad effect on my self image.

When I'm fine I'm curious about many things and willing to learn about them, but when I'm down I tend to forget my curiosity and ability when I'm fine.

This was a great disadvantage in opportunities to tell about myself, for example know new friends or appeal myself when I seek a job opportunity.

Telling about my ability when I'm down is important, because the time I feel bad is longer than I feel that I'm fine. This is not an easy work. When I'm down, it looks like I don't like neither my "unable" self and even "able" self. Now it's worth while making a small effort to like myself that was able to do something at a particular time and especially that help someone else with my "able" self.

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