Walking and jogging after supper, and thought a little

After supper I took a walk. When started, I thought I was so tired that I couldn't walk any more.
I was thinking about a trouble of the air conditioner in my room.
Then I thought about the surprise when I learned the usage of "flight". Today I learned that a flight can refer to moving one floor to another with stairs.
When I was thinking of those things, I walked really slowly.
After I walked 10 minutes, I felt slightly better, so I began to jog but I did still slowly.
If I jogged too fast, I couldn't have a good sleep, so I kept the pace slow.
In the end I found out that I had jogged since then until I arrive home.
My walk, jog and thinking is so slow at home that I sometimes wonder if I'm deteriorating or I'm under depression or other mental disorders.
In the day I make every effort to do my best at work, so the gap between in the daytime of weekdays and in the morning or evening, or weekend make me think that I'm pushing myself too hard. I may want to balance the efforts at work and recovery from stress and tiredness.

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