The Root of My Difficulty in Communications Here to Stay - My Progresses 58

The difficulty in Breaking Ice Here to Stay. I was a little bit disappointed, because I thought I had acquired some communication skills through my daily work.

Today I went a lunch meeting with church members.
We enjoyed a great meal, and it was also great time to have nice conversations.

In the beginning of lunch, ice-braking game was held.
Each member took a card with a list of questions such as "Are you born in a Christian family?", "Do you have more than two brothers?", or "Did you live in Sendai when you were in elementary school?" Each member met somebody else, asked some question from the question list, and if they got the answer "yes", the wrote the name of the person they asked the question. The first person to fill the question list with members' name would be the winner.

I almost understood how to play the game, and I did understand the question, but I was so scared of being questioned by someone else, I asked the game master to omit me from the game.

I have gotten accustomed some social situation like answering phones by practicing typical responses over and over again, but through today's experience, the root of my communication difficulty has still been here to stay.

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