Overcoming selective mutism?
Acquiring skills with which some teammates may be ready to work with, in spite of my selective mutism?
I didn't have a choice to hide my autistic disorders, because job fair was one of the places where I froze and could not say a word. Every time I went to a job fair, I find myself at the rescue space, with help of the staff. Looked like I had been so panicked that I fainted.
Therefore I didn't even have a chance to advance to a first step of job interviews.
That was what I happened to 15 years ago, when I began to hunt a job.
Besides, as I have told in this blog several times, I was obsessed with the poisonous thought that no one would want to talk with me. I was obsessed with another terrible thought; I would be panicked every day, rather than I would be successful in job procedure, even if I were successful to land a job.
The efforts in overcoming and recovering from dropout and bad grade didn't helped me at all. It then even didn't give me confidence that I had made not a small achievement, so I would be potential to achieve even grater achievements after I begin to work.
Also, I was greatly regretful, when I was about to graduate from university, that again I had missed the opportunity to enjoy student life, followed by my high school time busy with study for exams, club activities, and full of distress, especially three months of withdrawal from school, from mental wreck, which brought us - myself, my parents, and teacher - to the awareness of my autistic characteristic.
It was not until recently that I got able to view a bit objectively what I was like when I was in university, and when I was in high school - 15 years to 25 years from now, however at some time in the period may be a few critical points where I stray from the main stream of the society.
Acquiring skills with which some teammates may be ready to work with, in spite of my selective mutism?
I didn't have a choice to hide my autistic disorders, because job fair was one of the places where I froze and could not say a word. Every time I went to a job fair, I find myself at the rescue space, with help of the staff. Looked like I had been so panicked that I fainted.
Therefore I didn't even have a chance to advance to a first step of job interviews.
That was what I happened to 15 years ago, when I began to hunt a job.
Besides, as I have told in this blog several times, I was obsessed with the poisonous thought that no one would want to talk with me. I was obsessed with another terrible thought; I would be panicked every day, rather than I would be successful in job procedure, even if I were successful to land a job.
The efforts in overcoming and recovering from dropout and bad grade didn't helped me at all. It then even didn't give me confidence that I had made not a small achievement, so I would be potential to achieve even grater achievements after I begin to work.
Also, I was greatly regretful, when I was about to graduate from university, that again I had missed the opportunity to enjoy student life, followed by my high school time busy with study for exams, club activities, and full of distress, especially three months of withdrawal from school, from mental wreck, which brought us - myself, my parents, and teacher - to the awareness of my autistic characteristic.
It was not until recently that I got able to view a bit objectively what I was like when I was in university, and when I was in high school - 15 years to 25 years from now, however at some time in the period may be a few critical points where I stray from the main stream of the society.
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