Perhaps a hidden but great mismatch preventing me from going to a peer group

These days I'm often absent from peer groups I belong in.

This group is for people with autistic spectrum disorders.
Years ago, I liked it very much, because there I was able to share my thoughts and I got to awareness of myself by interacting with its members. No other place did have a chance to share the idea of how I had struggled at school, how I had failed to have self confidence and self assertion.

One reason is my tiredness.
There is probably another reason for my absence, for I'm able to go to work with no major problem, but when it comes to go to a session of the group, thinking of it even makes my body and mind heavy. There may be a hidden reason, and probably I feel a much greater mismatch to be in that group even than I'm in my workplace.

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