What did I do 5 years ago? And now?
I wrote 2 times more than I write here now.
I was more energetic to write on behave of "aspies".
I believed in fellowships of people with autistic spectrum disorders.
By chance I looked back on my past blog posts 5 years ago.
I made a little more grammatical errors than now, but much more energetic and hopeful when I learn a lot about web coding and commercial design in general.
I tried to get inspiration and learn as much as possible from what I see every day for my design proficiency. I tried to learn from ads I see in Sendai station, pamphlets in front of the travel center there and so on.
I also had energy and hope to do things around me.
I then energetically scan documents of the past to help my room clean.
One thing that makes my condition bad in 2014 is that I didn't know how to begin exercise when I feel weary.
Sometimes I was so tired that it took pretty long time before I begin an action. Looks like I was sometimes saying to myself that I want to lie on my bed right away, even when I was to have supper or have a bath. It was surprisingly similar feeling to what I feel as tiredness these days in 2019. As then I felt despair at a time and hope at another time, so now I feel; hope isn't everything, but neither is despair.
I sometimes uploaded a picture of a car I had sketched, when I was bored or distressed. The more I was distressed, the more the desire to draw details of the car I was drawing. I didn't avoid overlaying my ballpoint pen stroke on the line I had already drawn, which was really a rough sketch.
I was more energetic to write on behave of "aspies".
I believed in fellowships of people with autistic spectrum disorders.
By chance I looked back on my past blog posts 5 years ago.
I made a little more grammatical errors than now, but much more energetic and hopeful when I learn a lot about web coding and commercial design in general.
I tried to get inspiration and learn as much as possible from what I see every day for my design proficiency. I tried to learn from ads I see in Sendai station, pamphlets in front of the travel center there and so on.
I also had energy and hope to do things around me.
I then energetically scan documents of the past to help my room clean.
One thing that makes my condition bad in 2014 is that I didn't know how to begin exercise when I feel weary.
Sometimes I was so tired that it took pretty long time before I begin an action. Looks like I was sometimes saying to myself that I want to lie on my bed right away, even when I was to have supper or have a bath. It was surprisingly similar feeling to what I feel as tiredness these days in 2019. As then I felt despair at a time and hope at another time, so now I feel; hope isn't everything, but neither is despair.
I sometimes uploaded a picture of a car I had sketched, when I was bored or distressed. The more I was distressed, the more the desire to draw details of the car I was drawing. I didn't avoid overlaying my ballpoint pen stroke on the line I had already drawn, which was really a rough sketch.
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