Even if not Every Time, A Peer Group of ASD is not so Bad

Since around the beginning of this year, 2019, I have been thinking that "the need of place (a peer group) I can have conversation" isn't necessarily my priority.

From yesterday's session, I'm inclined to change my mind. Conversations in a peer group isn't so bad. There are a few interesting topics, even if we are going to lose dedicated facilitators.

I was thinking I wasn't able to enjoy conversation without help from a facilitator, and I had seldom enjoyed conversation with only peer members.
Looks like my thought was wrong. It depends on topics.

When a topic is about odd rules from school or peer pressure from classmates, I can relate to it, because I had long suffered from such kinds of experiences, and they greatly affect my personality, especially my shyness even up to now.

It takes a lot of energy to join in a peer group with people on autism spectrum disorder. I don't think I can enjoy every time, while working almost full time. But joining it from time to time give me kind of fun and some insightful thoughts, because, if I carefully listen to their topic, members talks their insightful ideas, even though I have to endure a lot of deviation of topics.

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