Won the web page category of prefectural preliminary in a very hot day

Now I'm relieved to be here home, with not much problem in today's skill competition, a prefectural preliminary for the nation-wide and international competition named "Abilimpics", a combination term of Ability and Olympics.

I won the gold medal in the web page category this year.
Last year, I got bronze in the database category, and the year before last I won silver in the web page category.
Although I manage to be superior to the other participants, my performance today was far from satisfaction. For example, I missed rules of vertical margins and forcefully set negative margin to fill the spaces that disconnect the boxes laid out vertically.

Due to the heat today, I chose to absent from the first half of awards ceremony.

I thought I couldn't stand the pressure and maintain the energy to go to work on Monday.

Besides, I was so nervous, I was likely to even forget sweating.
My mind gave an alert of body heat in addition to anxiety and hyperventilation.


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