Notes in the day which I hate to look back, and certainty of tomorrows by a little bit demanding schedule

I took notes in the day hoping that I would make a post from them.
It's a shame that now I'm too tired to feel like looking back on them.
If I saw them, I might say to myself, "I'm too tired now to think that way", even though I thought in that way some hours ago.

Instead when I was heading home I came up with an insight.
Sometimes, I become tired of schedules and directions for a few days later, but today I came up with a thought that "being worried about schedules of days ahead means I believe in such days ahead". This thought is wonderful especially when I'm so tired that I doubt if there are tomorrows in my life. Tomorrow, and the next day, probably, I will do my work coping with tasks and communications.

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