Tired, but have something to enjoy, both last year and this year

Although I don't have much to say, I don't feel so bad these days, except for a little bit too tired with increased data to deal with at work, which is typical of the time of the year.

Wondering what I was thinking this time of last year, I read back this blog.
My memory has it that last year I was tired so much that I wanted to scream at the end of the week. Reading back my posts, I was unexpectedly enjoying.

I went skiing a few times and I was studying a lot about web pages, especially about CSS. I also enjoyed reading books through Kindle Fire HD.

This year, I don't read so much as last year, but I practice listening by transcribing newscasts spoken in English. Although tired sometimes, I enjoy the practice.

The year before last I was almost mentally wreck, but both last year and this year, I have something to enjoy while I am/was pretty tired from a lot of work.

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