Not really crying wolf, although I was made believe so in my childhood
Was this a tough week?
I wasn't aware until I couldn't help flipping my hands, almost clapping, frowning, flinching, and winking over and over again on the train from work home on this Friday.
3 minutes after I got off train, I suddenly began to cry like a siren or alarm, then I muttered and shouted to myself, "I'm just crying wolf." Actually this is probably a sign of "strange noise" in which my mind is beginning to malfunction.
Why "crying wolf"? It's probably I have heard a phrase "it's just crying wolf" in a newscast I hard on the train the day and the other day, and a voice of flashback of my elementary school period, saying "He's just crying wolf." Then, when I was in elementary school "crying wolf" has become the description of that kind behaviors and the causes of them, although I didn't completely understand what "crying wolf" is like. I understood the meaning, that cry something to turn someone's attention, and I had believed that I had a habit to cry wolf. Indeed I was lonely.
Years later, I noticed that turning attention was not my priority, as I was beginning to understand that I had actually in pain if not physically, mentally. Indeed I was lonely because I hardly knew how to communicate with people properly. I understood that the main reason was there was no other way to get along with a certain feeling, which now I can describe as stress or pain , provisionally, to be at a certain place or situation.
I wasn't aware until I couldn't help flipping my hands, almost clapping, frowning, flinching, and winking over and over again on the train from work home on this Friday.
3 minutes after I got off train, I suddenly began to cry like a siren or alarm, then I muttered and shouted to myself, "I'm just crying wolf." Actually this is probably a sign of "strange noise" in which my mind is beginning to malfunction.
Why "crying wolf"? It's probably I have heard a phrase "it's just crying wolf" in a newscast I hard on the train the day and the other day, and a voice of flashback of my elementary school period, saying "He's just crying wolf." Then, when I was in elementary school "crying wolf" has become the description of that kind behaviors and the causes of them, although I didn't completely understand what "crying wolf" is like. I understood the meaning, that cry something to turn someone's attention, and I had believed that I had a habit to cry wolf. Indeed I was lonely.
Years later, I noticed that turning attention was not my priority, as I was beginning to understand that I had actually in pain if not physically, mentally. Indeed I was lonely because I hardly knew how to communicate with people properly. I understood that the main reason was there was no other way to get along with a certain feeling, which now I can describe as stress or pain , provisionally, to be at a certain place or situation.
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