Things I feel skiing season and busiest season are about to be past

I enjoyed skiing today. This is the last skiing in this city in this season.
Perhaps I may go skiing two or three more times in Yamagata in April and May.

I was thinking of playing games on weekdays, but after I came home time has passed just viewing information about Dragon Quest and Final Fantasy on wiki sites about them.

I think I'm healthy in my body, but in my mind I doubt it.
Especially I feel that I'm too tired to take action if I don't have to, especially when I'm off duty in the morning and at night, and on weekends.
Besides that I tend to repeat checking on the seats if my properties aren't left behind, even when I hadn't put out anything, and even if I couldn't take a seat.
I feel how stupid myself was when I was obsessed about property check and began to check seats other passengers had left. There may be something of the passengers, but I was checking if my thing was left behind at places I hadn't been even there.

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