Efforts of the year 2011, 5 years ago - inconvenience after the earthquake, CCNA, and stress coping

The year 2011

In this afternoon, I'm scanning notes I took years ago.
A notebook of 5 years ago, taken in 2011 especially draw my eyes.

In the spring Sendai area had a huge earthquake and I had to stand great inconvenience for a few months. The Senzan line was out of service for 2 months, so I had to ride crowded bus in jammed traffic. Still, it was not much considering terrible losses and damages of the tsunami in coastal areas.

In the summer, I studied a lot for CCNA exam. I learned a lot about the TCP/IP network, routers, network switches, and wireless LAN devices. I read textbooks, took notes over and over again to check if I was understanding knowledge on these things.

At the same time stress coping efforts was on the way.
When I made a mistake, terrible voices echoed in my head.
To fight against this illusion, I wrote truths with scribbles of large characters. I was so excited and this was one good way to calm myself down.
This approach, writing good things and truths with big letters, is still one good way to help me calm down when I'm upset.

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