Signs that alart my condition to myself

These days my work goes relatively well, but there is a few problems in my condition.

In recent weeks the times I say something to myself aloud doubled.
When I walk from the station home after work I sometimes walk dizzily, with my arms and wrist bent oddly.
I don't feel so bad. I can even smile. But sometimes I wonder if my smile actually look so stiff that many people would be scared if they say me smiling when I'm tired or I'm in distress.

With my boss's advice I paced down my work and took a paid holiday for the next week.

My odd behaviors can be the traits that just make me unique and there may be nothing to worry, but it is as long as I'm mentally and physically in good shape.

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