Age 29-30 (1) Miserable start of my job hunting
By the time I became 30, I had had master's degree in mathematics, and become familiar with English through English classes held by a church. I had spent university life in Sapporo for almost 10 years, with dropout of 1 and half years and with break of 1 and half years, due to mental breakdown.
The last year I was in Sapporo, giving up doctoral course, I thought that I might be able to land a job if I do my best, for I had recovered from serious mental breakdown and dropout by doing my best. I attended several sessions.
The first session is like a lecture from a job information service company. There I learned the need to learn the difference in business models even though two or more businesses apparently deal with similar products and look like rivals. I enjoyed listening, and I strengthened my confidence.
It however was the only session I got away from silence and panics. The second session, many business attended for recruiting. Many students also came to communicate with recruiters, most of who it seemed to me came with their friends and visited companies' booths in their group. I went there alone.
There I did terrible. During the session, I hid from recruiter and escaped them when it looked like that they were about to talk to me. I was surprised of the action of myself. I hadn't thought that I had been that shy. I knew, no talk, no chance. This threw me into more serious panic. The second half of session, I was even frozen and the only thing I could do was I asked for help the staff of the session. Fortunately they were helpful enough to listen to my long story, and how I struggle to overcome the mental breakdown and achieved my degree. At that time, the word autism and Asperger's syndrome I was suggested at the age of 18, a little bit more than 10 years before, but I knew little about what means to me, especially what means to me in my career.
The staff suggested the job openings for disabled people, so I have to take action as soon as possible. Later, I emailed her for advice and god the information that little was known (to businesses in Japan) about autism, and still less about Asperger's syndrome and high-functioning autism, and they were reluctant to employ people with mental disorders.
At that time I thought I could manage.
The last year I was in Sapporo, giving up doctoral course, I thought that I might be able to land a job if I do my best, for I had recovered from serious mental breakdown and dropout by doing my best. I attended several sessions.
The first session is like a lecture from a job information service company. There I learned the need to learn the difference in business models even though two or more businesses apparently deal with similar products and look like rivals. I enjoyed listening, and I strengthened my confidence.
It however was the only session I got away from silence and panics. The second session, many business attended for recruiting. Many students also came to communicate with recruiters, most of who it seemed to me came with their friends and visited companies' booths in their group. I went there alone.
There I did terrible. During the session, I hid from recruiter and escaped them when it looked like that they were about to talk to me. I was surprised of the action of myself. I hadn't thought that I had been that shy. I knew, no talk, no chance. This threw me into more serious panic. The second half of session, I was even frozen and the only thing I could do was I asked for help the staff of the session. Fortunately they were helpful enough to listen to my long story, and how I struggle to overcome the mental breakdown and achieved my degree. At that time, the word autism and Asperger's syndrome I was suggested at the age of 18, a little bit more than 10 years before, but I knew little about what means to me, especially what means to me in my career.
The staff suggested the job openings for disabled people, so I have to take action as soon as possible. Later, I emailed her for advice and god the information that little was known (to businesses in Japan) about autism, and still less about Asperger's syndrome and high-functioning autism, and they were reluctant to employ people with mental disorders.
At that time I thought I could manage.
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