Standing far away from leadership, struglling with the most entry-level communication

I checked a few English media from Japan. I saw some articles of opinions. Some articles dealt with leaderships of business and maybe politics.

Looking back on myself, where I stand is so much far behind that I've been thinking that I'm the last person to take leadership, even though the word leadership is so attractive.

I'm often worried and even intimidated in daily small communications. Fortunately I've landed a job at the age of 35, and through 3 years of experience, I've barely become slightly confident of the most entry level of business communication, like answering a phone (although I made a terrible mistake 2 days ago) and make brief report of the work of the day.

How to respond to leadership issues is a challenging matter, and I feel the people about to meet the standard is one million kilometers ahead of me. It's not realistic that I might fill the million kilometer gap in a few years, but if I'm positive, I'm willing to go at least a hundred kilometers. (At this pace, it looks like taking ten thousand years).

As a guy with opportunity to read and write more than two language, even though the gap looks intimidating, I feel that I can't afford to turn my back.
Location: 日本, 宮城県仙台市青葉区

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