Hands full in working through a week

This week working without much trouble I have had my hands full.

Yesterday I felt so weary that it took 25 minutes in 1 kilometer walk to work from the station nearby. All pedestrians passed me by. I guess I was the slowest pedestrian around the station last morning. Fortunately I managed to finish that day's work, struggling with my fatigue. I thought I was too tired to speak in counseling. Talking about myself was the moment to release myself, but it risked some sleep cut last night and left some physical fatigue. Fortunately this wasn't so terrible as one I felt the morning of the day.

Today it took 15 minutes to work. I had still a lot of data to enter, but it was still manageable. But I still had to cope with my temper in communicating with my colleagues. It was thanks to the help from my colleagues that I managed to work through this week.

It's fortunate that I've finished the work for this week safely, but it's real that I have to manage my fatigue for weekend. I hope I'm going to skiing tomorrow, but considering my fatigue, skiing all the day may not be feasible but just going to the mountain, skiing a few hours and go home early.

I'll go to work vigorously for the next Monday, after enough rest and refreshment and self-care.

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