Scanning skiing notes of 10 years ago made me think of my athletic skills and my obsession with drawing

This morning I scanned a notebook to reduce paper memos.

On this notebook I had taken notes mainly about my skiing from 1997 to 2002.
I took notes about what I learned from instructors, what I felt about what I had been taught, and my inner feeling and interpretation of skiing techniques I had learned from instructors, or had read from magazines on skiing.

It reminds me of how I was serious about skiing 10 years ago, and how poor understanding I had about skiing movements.
Thinking seriously about skiing helped me with considering my athletic skill, not really poor, and of course not excellent, but unique, fine but serious problem with imitating. I'd like to relate my athletic skills later if my idea about it is well composed.

On it I also draw pictures of cars as I can't help doing other notebooks, lecture notes and sermon notes. My drawing skill haven't been improved much since then, I guess a little bit more than 10 years ago.


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