I continue to learn a language, even if there's no one to talk to. Talking to myself has already almost satisfying me | My motivation has been turned into "Understanding and Helping"

With my personality, communication for itself easily wear me out. Just for communication is hard to be my motivation, unlike people who really like and enjoy and seek any kind of communication as often as possible. It goes against my personality.

Instead I prefer to probe many field of knowledge, in some field deeper, and in some feel not so deep but wide. I like to know and understand, even if there are no one to tell.

In this way, I reached this conclusion. I will continue to learn foreign languages, even if I have never a chance and no one to talk to.

This is what I thought in October, 2019. I was busy, and to be honest stressed out while preparing for Abilympics. At that time, I was extremely easily to get tired out after I meet someone else. I was seeking opportunities to talk with adults on the autism spectrum, but kind of found it disappointing, because what I was and am interested in, career in the computer industry but I couldn't find anyone who was interested in that field.

When I was studying for certificates, I was able to forget my despair, loneliness, and frustration about my career and (social - not computer) networking.

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