2012, a silent period here - Changed Environments in People and Work

In 2012 I posted this blog only once. I was in a middle of mental storms, overwhelmed by changes of my working environment along with expanding employment of people with disabilities.

I began to compete in Abilympics (vocational skills competition for people with disabilities), prefectural competition, won the second place in web page creating.
From that time I began to deal with web page matters for the company.
Web page work was quite different from what we had been working on before.
I had to make a plan myself and then report to the bosses.
I also had to work longer when page layouts are different from what I intended, reviewing codes and looking up how HTML and CSS work.

It was a new challenge. I was excited, but on the other hand I was worried because I could hardly see what would await me 3 days or 3 weeks ahead.

I did not have extra energy to study English and do physical exercise. This was, I think, one reason why I could only once here in 2012.

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