"Boss Rush" of stresses these days, along with a change of my working environment

This week, with the change of my working environment I worked through.

No particular moment was especially tough this week.

When I'm home in the evening, however, I find myself almost blank, with my mind and body heavy, stiff, and rigid. I even hear sometimes sharp screams from my head and my mind.

"This is critical period." I thought to myself.
The first cup of coffee of the day become stronger one, to Starbucks VIA Italian Roast, Christmas Blend, or Tribute Blend, from Kreis's Royal Mountain Blend or Darbon Organic Mountain, with mild, smooth, gentle aroma which I really like when I'm in shape.

These days, the instant coffees I usually drink are much too gentle to stand the big wave of stress.

I also thought to myself, "This is Boss Rush of daily stress!"
I recalled a scene of a shooter game in which the bosses I have beaten in earlier stages striking back one after another.
As for stress, I have endured stresses in which I could shout out loud and run away from my situation, but all these stresses, like flashbacks seemed to strike back this week, along with a change of my working environment.

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