"Stop Missing the Experiences of Being Bullied!" Everyday Storm of Mind

"Stop Missing the Experiences of Being Bullied!" Maybe I need this kind of advice to be somehow free from my frustration.

Inside my mind is often a rough condition as though I were in a storm, and sometimes I'm tempted to put out my inside storm, like shouting out loud in public or jumping up and down in a railway station. It is as if I myself were bringing about a trouble that is near bullying and even I'm missing my experience of being a target of bullying.
 (By the way it's not until now that my state mind has been that, "in real world there are train delays due to the storm, but the storm inside my mind hasn't been care enough.")

My stormy mind may be real, but I need not cause trouble in real world, triggering a trouble with people passing by. I may have desire that someone would notice my stormy mind and that I need help, but my action runs in the opposite way, bringing about unsympathetic actions.
Standing storms of my mind is enough!

Nobody may notice it, but, as well as everybody, who live their life with occasional storms, I'm doing well in that I'm living my life, greatly thanks to many helps from many people, in the middle of occasional real storms and every day storms of mind.

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